WWMD?
March 29th, 2022What would you do?
Knowing that our youngest is autistic has changed the way I see things. I am observing him more closely, I am watching how we handle situations, I look at how he interacts with others and so on. I want to see where we as a family need to make changes to help him feel less chaotic and more in rhythm with life.
The one place where I feel like I have no control is when he is at school. Boy oh boy is it hard for me not to wonder, and ponder, and worry about what is going on in his classroom. Are the kids being nice to him? Is someone giving him the attention he needs? Are the teachers compassionate to his needs?
This week my son had an incident at school. The luck of it all, I was there to witness the whole thing. The kids were asked to wear their 5th grade shirts because they were going to taking a picture of all the 5th graders at the school. Well, this happens to be the day I pick him up for speech. Of course they had to wait until the afternoon to take the picture, just as I show up to get him (insert eye roll). I told him it was ok, and to go be in the picture because we have a few minutes to spare. This was an important event. So the kids were gathering and getting situated for the picture, which right next to the pick up zone. So I headed to my car and waited for him. As I was waiting I was looking in my rearview mirror at all the kids on the grassy hill getting ready. Then I see one of the 5th grade teachers, the blonde one, talking to my son. She was shaking her hands and by the way she was expressing herself by her posture and hand motions, I knew it was not a good conversation. I jumped out of my car and started towards the group. Then my son turned around and he had tears streaming down his face. I asked him what was going on (because I wanted to jump on this teacher and …well, I think you know how that would have ended). He said I’ll tell you in the car. I could tell by his face that he didn’t want to cry in front of all the 5th graders, as they were all standing right there.
We got in the car and I asked what happened. He said that he was worried that we were going to be late for the appointment and told the older 5th grade teacher that “this was taking to long and I need to go because my mom is waiting for me”. He said that she told him in a mean voice to get back in the picture your mom can wait. Whenever someone speaks in a harsh tone and he thinks they are mad at him, he gets upset and cries. He has always been this way. Then he said that the blonde teacher told him to get out of the picture because no one wants to see someone crying in the picture, so you can either stop crying or you can leave. This is the conversation that I saw happening.
I sat there for a moment to ponder how to handle this situation. I decided to leave and call the principal.
I called the principal and explained the situation. Her response was that it’s ok, we can photoshop him in because we have had to do it many times in the past. I said that is not the point. This is supposed to be one of the good memories of 5th grade. I told her that since we have moved here we have had a hard time helping him to fit in and make friends at this school. Now during this group event he was excluded because he was upset due to the teachers telling him he couldn’t be in the picture. She said that she was sorry and she was going to get the team together to see what happened. I then said that “I am tired of my kid being picked on. Picked on by the kids, being bullied and now apparently picked on by the teachers”. I was in tears by this point during the call. She said that she would talk with the teachers and help make things better for him so he has a great memory of 5th grade. I said, “well there is only 10 days of school left, I don’t see the point now…it should have been happening this whole year”. She said that she wanted to make sure the last 10 days were all great days for him. (insert eye roll)
I have been so upset by this. This has consumed my week of wondering, do they always treat him this way? Is this the real reason why he hates school? What else happens to him? I don’t know how many tears I have shed over this. I am an over-thinker. Is it biology, is it maternal instinct, or it a woman’s intuition? All I know is, that I just do.